Missive 11: 8 January 2019
Hello Tramily and Welcome to your eleven TrailMagick89 tramily missive,
How have you all been this year? We have been getting more and more excited about our Bucket List. Which looking at those two words I have realized that y’all do not know what our Bucket List is; so it will be posted by the time this missive is posted on the tenth of this month.
Today I want you to know that you can do nearly anything you set your mind to do. There are a few things that people can not do ‘like becoming the new dictator of Latveria’ or ‘visiting Reed Richards at the Baxter Building in New York’; yes I know I just did a major Marvel Universe plug. Of course putting on the cape and the cowl is a possibility all you DC Universe fans. Yes, we like comic books. They are “Awesome Acorns” to quote Squirrel Girl. Okay the comic book plugs are over, maybe.
With any health conditions the challenges are out there to overcome and accomplishing anything on your Bucket List if they are a concern. As for Sweets and I they are something that we have to deal with and learning the proper way to deal with them is what a small part of our life is. Though beyond that they are not a concern.
The doctors say I have Epilepsy, Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures, Acute Psychosis, at any moment I can experience a Psychotic Break from reality due to Depersonalization-Derealization or is it Derealization-Depersonalization Syndrome. Either way the street name is Time Displacement Syndrome. Think of this as you continue reading; I have heard the dumbest question out there, and yes there is one (that is after having a seizure); “Well, what did you forget” (if I knew that I would not have forgotten what it was that I forgot)?
Memory loss from seizures is an experience I do not wish on anyone; first off, understanding what is happening to you is scary at best, second, other people believing it is happening is even scarier, and third, waiting for your memory to come back, which it may never actually or fully do is the worst. I know it has happened to me; I know there are still things I do not remember even from April of 2017 or due to any of the seizures since then. My average seizure count per week now a days is five to fifteen a week.
Think of 50 First Dates, mixed with the Time Traveler’s Wife, and throw in a little anti-hero attitude like Batman, the Hulk, or Wolverine and you have one of my Psychotic Breaks. Memory loss from such an event as a seizure from Epilepsy or P-NES can cause anyone to forget any amount of time for any period of time; along with forgetting everything that existed up to that point. During April of 2017 I forgot the previous ten years and forgot I was married or even that Sweets existed.
How do I deal with something like that? That is easy. We consciously; that is deliberately put guards into place that keep me with Sweets or someone she trusts with me twenty four hours a day seven days a week.
So, be prepared for all that life throws at you and enjoy your life. We embrace our life together as each moment is precious to us. And yes you have read it before we do our best to seek peace where ever we can find it. Each day is a new adventure. Where will your adventure take you today?
Two final thoughts. What is on your Bucket List? Have you checked anything off on your Bucket List?
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Semper Fidelis, Sweets & Elroy